Blast Christmas

"during christmas vigil night, i wished that i will be happy spending my christmas times with my family and have an amazing spending the days of christmas with my family"

The Christmas wish came true. My family wasn't planning of going to my dad's hometown in Keningau this Christmas because he was too busy with all the those stuff (what a pain in the butt I tell you!). I was so mad and I was trying to know and find ways of going back to Keningau and guess what? God grant me my cousin during Vigil night and asked me if I would like to come with her! And yeah I just go with the flow and here I am writing this blog while I'm Keningau at granpapa's house... I love granpapa!

On the 1st day of Christmas, I went through... well, not a lot. Just a little trip going here, taking the big bus and whole lot of stuff. Meeting all my cousins here and all my aunts and uncles. How cool can that be? Well, maybe for YOU it was nothing but the thing is I don't usually go back here because I have whole lots of stuff back in KK that I have to settle. Now that I'm out of highschool and finish my bloody SPM, I guess I have nothing to do at home so I've decided to go here instead.

Well, I do wish my parents are here... and ccan you believe it? I'm the only person representing my dad here. Bloody old man not even bother of going back to his hometown, where he lives before, where he grow up! Not even bother of seeing granpa back at home while he is still living healthy!!! What would he felt if I don't go home for Christmas or Easter or whatsoever event if I'm married????? Crazy... Sorry Lord, but seriously am madly overfrustrated with him! He is one self-centered old man. (Sorry again.)

Oh yea, all of us decided to have a Christmas family gathering + with Christmas open house. My uncle John became the spokesperson for the Christmas night because my dad who is the oldest and suppose to be the spokesperson WASN'T there!!! Anyway, Uncle John was the second child.

So they listed a few thing that we were suppose to do for the gathering and make a agenda and give out jobs to all of us. Man, it was seriously a formal family meeting. There was a secretary, treasurer and directors which are my aunts and uncles. So yea, we get some rest because the next day is when all of us get busy with all the shopping and cooking and setting up + cleaning the house...

2nd day of Christmas - as I have told you we were busy with all those stuff. So when it came to the party, I was really amazed how the people came around and the news of the party spreads fast. I love it! It's just a miracle that I had a blast christmas with my relatives, laughing and having fun and no I don't drink. I could have but I don't want.

The aftermath - I went to my grandpapa's house (the party was at my Aunt Ramiah's house) and set up my bed and ready to sleep but I couldn't because the party was not fully over yet. The kids were still around and shouting eventho' it like 1am. They're suppose to be in bed but I guess if you're here there's no curfew! And I have no curfew 'cos my parents aren't around. heehehee...

Then my grandpa went inside and sat beside me. Did I tell you we celebrated his 81st birthday on that gathering?

Happy Birthday granpa...

eventho' I know you won't read this because you're too old and you don't even know how to use the computer...

kalo komputer pun nda tau, apa lagi internet!

So we talked and he kinda express his feeling about my family. He told me that my sister was snobbish because don't even bother about him when he visited us in KK. Then I told him it's okay, you still have me. Honestly I LOVE my granpa! He is such a sporting lad. He kinda makes me comfortable when I'm around him eventho' when I was little I wasn't an apple of the eye to him but he is my no. 1 granpa. He's the only one alive. All other 3 died, I didn't really get to know them especially at my mother's side... they died before I ever think properly.

I felt really guilty because of my family! And I felt sorry for granpa.... I'm so sorry granpa. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry because my dad wasn't here. I should have tried harder....I should have.

I thank the Lord because I'm here. I still wasn't planning of being here but yeah basically my wish came true.

Today is the 3rd day of Christmas and I'm left at home when 3 quarter of my cousins went to Agricultural Park in Tenom. How sad is that? But atleast I went to the river just now. I tell you, the water was super cold and the streams was strong enough to bring my heavy body along.

Oh and I have a drawing I did for Christmas but there's no scanner here.... I'll show you when I'm back at home. BYE!!!!

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Have a Wonderful Christmas. There is nothing more wonderful than having to spend your Christmas time with your loved ones.

PS://My wish came true.