Despite all the things that I felt during Christmas, Jesus Christ is here.
OK, so I felt bad during Christmas but I found out that I'm not the only one. When I was roaming around the city on Christmas day, my mom's friend lost his dad on that day. It was such a sad tragedy. People celebrate Christmas but his whole family grief for the old man's death. It was not long ago, his mother also passed away, I think it was about 2 months ago. And, I saw his dad. He was healthy and a very friendly old man. I can't believe he's gone now.
That's why I no longer feel like shit. 'Cos whatever it is, I still have my family together living under the same roof on Christmas day.
We got to move on... eventho' our loved ones gone.
Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year 2010.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Merry Christmas...
I'm posting this, maybe because I'm not ready to go to sleep yet. It's christmas and sadly not snowing. Snow never wants to get near this country... I wonder why???
Christmas is christmas. Whether you feel like it's coming or not, it's here. I have a friend who wonder "why do I feel that Christmas is not coming?". I ask myself that too... a lot. I don't know why I feel like disappearing from everything today. It's Christmas and it's one of those times where you share your love among your whole family and friends. It's a sad thing that I don't feel that this year. I even turn down my friend's invitation to celebrate Christmas with her and the others. It's not that I don't want to but... it's just that... I just felt that I have to stick with my family, especially my mother during this day.
Yesterday was not a very good Christmas eve. Christmas eve is about preparing for the Lord's coming. For Jesus to be born. Instead of that, I heard my mom and dad fought. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't cry because I was so mad or maybe because my brother was beside me and he just went off after that locking with loud songs playing in his bedroom. I'm sure somehow he's depress also. My mom didn't go to church for Christmas eve. And I didn't go to church just now. I always go to church on Christmas eve. I guess this year is different. I'm so sorry Lord. Forgive my sins. I'm so sorry Anthea for making you look for me in the church.
This is a challenge that I have to endure, eventho' I feel like disappearing. -Janey on Christmas-
Christmas is christmas. Whether you feel like it's coming or not, it's here. I have a friend who wonder "why do I feel that Christmas is not coming?". I ask myself that too... a lot. I don't know why I feel like disappearing from everything today. It's Christmas and it's one of those times where you share your love among your whole family and friends. It's a sad thing that I don't feel that this year. I even turn down my friend's invitation to celebrate Christmas with her and the others. It's not that I don't want to but... it's just that... I just felt that I have to stick with my family, especially my mother during this day.
Yesterday was not a very good Christmas eve. Christmas eve is about preparing for the Lord's coming. For Jesus to be born. Instead of that, I heard my mom and dad fought. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't cry because I was so mad or maybe because my brother was beside me and he just went off after that locking with loud songs playing in his bedroom. I'm sure somehow he's depress also. My mom didn't go to church for Christmas eve. And I didn't go to church just now. I always go to church on Christmas eve. I guess this year is different. I'm so sorry Lord. Forgive my sins. I'm so sorry Anthea for making you look for me in the church.
This is a challenge that I have to endure, eventho' I feel like disappearing. -Janey on Christmas-
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