ASH Wednesday

I think I am able to stand up without thinking about you... and think more about Him. He makes my days worth living for.

So today is Ash Wednesday where the fasting, almsgiving and more praying begins. I don't do fasting because I live to eat. I don't do almsgiving because I'm not a saint. (I know, I know, you don't have to be a saint to give back to the community but still, I couldn't do it, even if I want to.) Praying is something that I probably do everyday. Pray at heart that everything's gonna be OK.

So now I pray "Lord, I pray so that this lent will be a lesson for me and I will remember to fast, give and pray. O God, I also pray so that I may be able to fast especially for my addiction which is on FB. I may be able to be a strong person and that I know that I can rely on myself."

It's been a long time since I've update this thing. 'til the next one.

boring right, stop reading la...

i have to tell myself... this is just a stupid dilemma.

1. I hate the fact that you don’t eat vegetable
2. I hate your single eye-lid
3. I hate it when you weight less than me
4. I hate when you have that stupid smile on your face
5. I hate that you became my partner and have to bloody work with you
6. I hate when I always think about you
7. I hate the way you talk with a slow tone
8. I hate when you copy my jokes... oi, teda idea lain ka?
9. I hate you when you don’t even give a damn about me
10. Alast, eventho’ there’s so many things I hate about you, I hate it truthfully I was falling head over heels over you.

Shit... I hate myself falling for you, you pathetic creature.

MALAS!!!!

I am one of the laziest girl in the world in updating a blog... it's one freaking blog and I couldn't even update a word. Some people have more than one which is totally insane for me... :)

So why do I keep a blog when I don't really have the time to update it? Well...

1. Because most people have it so I thought I should to... (unacceptable, I know)

2. I like to update myself. sometimes. well make that one in a blue moon.

3. Well, I like writing out my feelings out. Writing, not typing. Before I thought it was thesame. hehe

4. no further comments...

Back to my life...

It's study week. Since I deactivated my FB for a lil' while I thought that I should update my blog... but it's been 1 week and ++ since I deactivated it and I only update my blog now. Duh... so lazy.

so here's a summary of my life

1. I got a braces. did I tell you that? no.. well yea I got it.

2. I manage to find time to do all my assignments during the last minute period.

3. I went for CSSUPM Annual Camp and didn't go back for Raya holiday.

4. Looking forward for end-semester holiday.

5. Learned how to play Tennis... now I can be just like Ana Ivanovic. (in my dreamsla)

6. Chose Broadcasting as a major.

7. Went to PARAMORE concert!!!!! OMG, it was supernaturally awesome!!!!

8. Slept at the airport waiting for E and V's flight home. I miss them already.

9. Became a Cell Group Coordinator for CSSUPM Exco 2010/2011.

10. Got a crush on someone but somehow I know as time pass by, this feeling will go away.

11. Fell in love with Fairy Tail anime. ngheee....

That's all... till the next blue moon.

the 8th week...

Lazy to upload the photos 'cos the line here super suck...

What I've been through this week:

1. Last-minute assignment (and then got scold by the lecturer about the front page. I did as simple as I could and she scold me 'cos didn't write which semester I'm at... come on lah,you didn't tell us at first so it's your fault, not us! yes, it's 'us'. I think all of us didn't write but I was scolded the most. I don't think the lecturer like me very much, well, right back at her. Ef-fing labuh!)

2. Went to KL again...(why I stated here, 'again'. because almost every week ... urm, no. Every week, I went to KL. When I was in highschool, I always say ''oh, I want to go to KL again.... bla bla'' Well, I guess I got my wish then. It's SALE time so I suggest you should to go to KL to shop around) with Chriz, Val, and Malisa.

I feel like the "king" of KL.

3. Had cultural mass with CSSUPM at St. Anne's chapel. It was super awesome! I had fun and gone home with a full stomach. There are still lots of foods left. The food was awesome 'cos I'm hungry and big possibilities because it's blessed. Wore punjabs attire and danced sumazau.

Half of the family...

4. Woke up in the evening 2 days in a row... (mentang-mentang la cuti kan. I feel so awful 'cos sleeping is not why I'm here for!!! Sometimes I hate myself for being so lazy)

Hi... Long Time No SEE?

So what happens after Christmas? Did Janey got hit by a car and fall into a comma? or got abducted by aliens from Pluto? or probably DIED??? oh noooo... She's just too effing lazy to go and type something here...

I read some blogs and I heard people tell me that "wah, it's been a long time since I didn't blog. I better blog now." You know, I have that same feeling but everytime I think about it I just go like "later... later." It's like I have tonnes of better things to do then blog. I do... but to think about it, if you only take about 30 mins to blog(minus the editing), it won't jeopardize your whole schedule right. I have problems with committing into blogging or even write a diary. Just want to write when I want to.

WHY AM I TELLING ALL THIS??? It's not like I have readers anymore. Whatever.

Anyway, this is what actually happen to me...

1. Graduated from Labuan Matriculation College with a 3.51 CGPA on Accountancy.

2. Stay at home...then decided to work.

3. Went to work for Pizza Hut Suria

4. Quit after 2 weeks of working

5. Lazying around the house and finishing all the foods - I love to eat =)

6. Got a letter of acceptance to University Putra Malaysia (my dream university) doing Bachelor of Communications (not really what I was hoping to get)

7. having dilemma of whether I should go or not...

8. After all those s***ty dilemmas, I went... for UPM!!! (YEAH!) B.Comm(erm, not really)

9. Came late for registration. Missed 2 days of orientation. Heheh...

10. So far so good? more updates...coming down.

11. Liking UPM. Went for the orientation....

The 2010 batch of UPM Students

12. Extra-curricular activity?.. Catholic Student Society UPM

13. Life goes on with classes and...

14. College activity... won third place for Academic race.

15. Merentas campus... (Cross-Campus). Let's jog for a healthy life...

oh and...

16. DOGATHON 2010!!!! super awesome event by the Vet students of UPM.

I'll post photos again... not now.

Good night.

The After-Christmas

Despite all the things that I felt during Christmas, Jesus Christ is here.

OK, so I felt bad during Christmas but I found out that I'm not the only one. When I was roaming around the city on Christmas day, my mom's friend lost his dad on that day. It was such a sad tragedy. People celebrate Christmas but his whole family grief for the old man's death. It was not long ago, his mother also passed away, I think it was about 2 months ago. And, I saw his dad. He was healthy and a very friendly old man. I can't believe he's gone now.

That's why I no longer feel like shit. 'Cos whatever it is, I still have my family together living under the same roof on Christmas day.

We got to move on... eventho' our loved ones gone.

Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year 2010.

Merry Christmas...

I'm posting this, maybe because I'm not ready to go to sleep yet. It's christmas and sadly not snowing. Snow never wants to get near this country... I wonder why???

Christmas is christmas. Whether you feel like it's coming or not, it's here. I have a friend who wonder "why do I feel that Christmas is not coming?". I ask myself that too... a lot. I don't know why I feel like disappearing from everything today. It's Christmas and it's one of those times where you share your love among your whole family and friends. It's a sad thing that I don't feel that this year. I even turn down my friend's invitation to celebrate Christmas with her and the others. It's not that I don't want to but... it's just that... I just felt that I have to stick with my family, especially my mother during this day.

Yesterday was not a very good Christmas eve. Christmas eve is about preparing for the Lord's coming. For Jesus to be born. Instead of that, I heard my mom and dad fought. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't cry because I was so mad or maybe because my brother was beside me and he just went off after that locking with loud songs playing in his bedroom. I'm sure somehow he's depress also. My mom didn't go to church for Christmas eve. And I didn't go to church just now. I always go to church on Christmas eve. I guess this year is different. I'm so sorry Lord. Forgive my sins. I'm so sorry Anthea for making you look for me in the church.

This is a challenge that I have to endure, eventho' I feel like disappearing. -Janey on Christmas-