no knowledge, why are you teaching?

I went for Communication Ethics class last Wednesday and it was a 3 hours class... Gosh, you know how a 3 hours class will be like? If it's 3 hours of Karaoke, I can bear it 'cos it's fun but this it CLASS!!! A freakin CLASS!!! Become more "fun" when the lecturer who teaches that subject is freakin lame and I hate her. I seriously do.

If you're easily offended, please stop reading here.

Seriously, I couldn't focus to what she was saying when she end up insulting the religion minorities in the class. She insult the Christians! No offence, Muslims friends, just that she emphasise her religion which is Muslim is still so sacred and y'all's Quran still the same, the words in there is still from up above the Almighty Allah. Whereas what she say about Christians, Jewish that we are not original anymore and our bibles have a lot versions and they're not from God anymore. But HELLO woman? please check your facts before you teach us that. You better thank God because it's the month of lent and I won't be such a trouble towards you. It's an ethic to respect other people's religion, OK? And she probably so confident that there are no Christians in the room. Well, guess what? I WAS THERE! you ungrateful...

OK, enough bout that. I have loads of things to worry 'bout instead of that.

I have a CSSUPM annual dinner coming up and I'm head of protocol. I will be incharge of all the flow of the event which includes decoration!! !! And I convince them to take Fairytale as a theme! I had so much idea on this year's annual dinner. I just hope it will all turn out good and I will pull it off to make everyone happy especially the final year.

That's all... God bless.

sorry, if you're offended but you know I'm right. Be respectful. pls. it's not too much too ask.

new and elected

So this morning I went to Annual General Meeting (AGM) for Catholic Students' Society UPM (CSSUPM). And we the old Excos had our dissolutions. We screamed and I felt light. I felt like something came out of me. Truthfully, I feel like CSSUPM doesn't need me anymore. Ofcourse, they don't. After all, I'm just one person. Who cares about me anymore? My opinion does not matter anymore. so... wth.

wow... that's harsh. but no, I don't mean that. and I know what you're thinking. "If you don't mean it? Why don't you just delete it and make a new sentence?" well, I had to say what my pride would say. So that I will always remember not to be that person. My heart tells a different story.

Actually, apart from feeling safe and relieved. I felt like there's something missing and not only I felt... I knew what it was. It was sadness. I was sad of leaving the Exco Team. I love CSSUPM 'cos it's the only thing that kept me alive here in Uni and I love God. So that's why, I decided to continue to do Chaplet of Divine Mercy every Tuesday 3pm.

Oh and I was really proud of past asst. CG coordinator which assist me for one year and plus... became the new President of CSSUPM. so proud of him. *clap2*

OK, so there's another thing I wanna talk about. RAINFOREST WORLD MUSIC FEST! Gosh, it looked so good, I was hoping to go. I wish there is still money left for that Rainfest tix and also flight tix. ... still thinking of going or not. man, all about money. but I promise a friend that I would go.

link to the page http://rwmf.net/

"bag with soap"

I went out again today to make a full payment on the ukulele. Well, more like my friend and went to pay the other half and she pay me the extra 100 bucks that I deposited. YES, she took the ukulele. She wanted it. It was quite expensive. I know what you're thinking... what? 200 bucks for a ukulele... trust me, it's a real good one to be $200.

nope, just kidding. not $200. It's RM200. see, $ and RM is not the same currency. So don't wonder about triple or quadruple more of the price. We Malaysian are a very poor country... and a third-world minded country. AHHH... seriously third-world. Especially the majorities and extremist. Seriously closed-minded and narrow. OK, not gonna talk 'bout that...

Anyway... I almost bought a flute today but when no one demo to me how to play flute, so I didn't buy. Besides I had to buy that size 9 guitar string.

About the "bag with soap" title. I bought a bag today. It's so cheap. like 25bucks (again RM). maybe I should write with RM... anyway, I bought the bag for school 'cos I don't have a proper bag. I thought of buying a back pack for school but this bag is appropriate too, I guess. It's a sling bag. like a laptop bag. And when I open, it has a body scrub and 2 empty small bottles. I also don't know why it was there... it was so hilarious. Maybe the bag was suppose to be for travelling or something. I guess it was a good investment.

Still figuring out how to play a harmonica.

2-03-2012

So today... I had a really long walk.

This is basically the route that I took.

It was a 4km walk. I enjoyed the walk because there's so much to see. So how did I end up walking when there's so many public transportation available here in Malaysia. Well, guess what? I had to walk because there was NO public transportation at all at that area. I couldn't catch any taxi because no taxi go in there. People who go to the Pusat Perindustrian Sg. Chua are those with cars. So, if I were to stay there, I might not have reach here in my hostel on time. It's amazing how I found my way back to the town, Kajang. I guess all that curiousity paid off. And thankfully the taxi that I went there with took the shortcut which I took when I was walking back. I was tired and my ballet shoes are killing my feet.

I had those thoughts of giving up and wait for a taxi or ask somebody for a lift but... I thought to myself, Jesus have walk through a more dangerous and further path in His life so WHY can't I do this for Him and myself during this lent?

I guess that was my sacrifice for this Friday. I didn't get a chance to attend the way of the cross today but, I had my own way of the cross.

So, I reached the Kajang town and I went in the Music Store. Oh man, that guy who sells the instruments can play like 32 instruments himself. It was totally enjoying to see him play. I've been to the same music store since I arrived in Selangor. So this is like my 4th visit and the storekeeper knows me. Besides, I bought beautiful baby (guitar) from there.

There was this instrument, UKULELE? I know what you're thinking "what? this girl doesn't know what a ukulele is?" ofcourselaa... I know, silly. It's just that I didn't know how to play it so I have no intention of holding or getting to know it.

I was surveying a Ukulele for a friend 'cos she couldn't make it to the store. She was at MidValley instead surveying Ukulele there. So the Ukulele sound super nice! And the price was also "nice"...

There were 2 left 'cos it's a fast selling instrument. I can tell that they just brought in the Ukuleles 'cos the store was a mess with boxes everywhere and some of the new-arrived instruments still in boxes. The ukuleles was in a box until I wanted to know the price so the guy ditch his schedule and gave service to me. I felt bad so I end up buying a harmonica. I know, CRAZY!!! I don't know how to play a harmonica! But since Priscilla Ahn plays harmonica so it's no harm to learn. I learnt a trick or two from the storekeeper just now.

Anyway, the ukulele... Oh man, it was really tempting to have with when I already know how to play it. It was super-duper easy when you know how to play guitar. Sooo.... I deposited 100 bucks to book the ukulele and will pay the rest when I pick it up. It was a favor for myself and my friend. If she doesn't want it 'cos it's expensive, then I'll take it! Because, surely she doesn't want either. It was really for her anyway so I don't mind waiting for the next or buy another time. The ukuleles are quite cheap compare to other stores.

If you wanna buy guitars (acoustics/electric/classical) or any other instruments (violin, harmonica, keyboards, drums, tambourines, etc...) or even guitar amp. You can totally get it from Rhema Music in Kajang. It's located near Metro Kajang. One of the shophouses, 1st floor. I won't promote them if they're not friendly and sell with good price. He gives special price for students too :)

flashmob!

Wow... I am not gonna say anything else about my blog update. I know it's like twice a year but hey, I'm gonna update today. YAY!

So, I love arts.
As much as I love them, I don't seem to be doing any of them right. That's including dancing, drawing, sewing, communicating, singing, play music and etc. I can do it, but it's not good enough.
Speaking 'bout arts... I'm joining a flash mob this coming March held in Pavilion. I went for the 1st practice for the flash mob. For those of you who don't know what a flashmob is... it's ... well... you can google it.
Fine, I'm gonna tell you anyway. Flashmob = group of people who dance in the middle of a group of strangers in a random time and date. well, atleast i think it's like that.
We dance and dance... I found out, I really suck at dancing.

Anyone who's interested in this Aman Flash Mob, please visit this website!
http://www.mahasiswaaman.org/

The Past

Someone found this blog and I feel a little bit embarrassed but what the hell... This is all my past. Whatever you have read here, it's all in the past. I found out that I was a little naive. and probably still am.

I went out with Anthea today. Goodness, I miss her so much and gotta catch up with her. haha. Wish we could like hang longer but I have to go back and she have a date with her family. haih... but PAVILION is soooo pretty with all those Christmas Decos. Crap, I didn't snap a picture! but I think Anthea has it. *finger crossed* I hope she'll blog it.

I won't probably update this sooo often because I have TWITTER! That's my new blog now and I'm lovin' it!

I do wish to go home for Christmas... if only life was a little bit fair.

Uneasy and annoyed

It's lent but I still can't get the uneasiness and feelings of annoyed in me.

I think, it's better to avoid you or ignore you than knowing that I hated the attention, 'cos it's only gonna make the situation worst.

There are several situation where I will feel annoyed =.="

1. When some stranger call me or someone who I barely know.

2. When someone's acting pretty weird.

3. When someone treat you nicely and the next day they don't.

4. When people are suppose to show some kindness and they don't (customer service in KL are BAD!!!!urgh, I hate the people here!!!)

5. When nothing goes right in a day.

6. When I keep forgetting things everywhere.

7. When the people around me talk loudly and like they want to tell the whole world but the whole world doesn't need to know your story la... (sometimes, we don't understand what they're talking about.)

8. When the driver is not signaling before turning to left or right... HOI! Pedestrians need cross the road, boneheads!

ya.. I'm feel so wrong somehow and I need to stop feeling this way.

ASH Wednesday

I think I am able to stand up without thinking about you... and think more about Him. He makes my days worth living for.

So today is Ash Wednesday where the fasting, almsgiving and more praying begins. I don't do fasting because I live to eat. I don't do almsgiving because I'm not a saint. (I know, I know, you don't have to be a saint to give back to the community but still, I couldn't do it, even if I want to.) Praying is something that I probably do everyday. Pray at heart that everything's gonna be OK.

So now I pray "Lord, I pray so that this lent will be a lesson for me and I will remember to fast, give and pray. O God, I also pray so that I may be able to fast especially for my addiction which is on FB. I may be able to be a strong person and that I know that I can rely on myself."

It's been a long time since I've update this thing. 'til the next one.

boring right, stop reading la...

i have to tell myself... this is just a stupid dilemma.

1. I hate the fact that you don’t eat vegetable
2. I hate your single eye-lid
3. I hate it when you weight less than me
4. I hate when you have that stupid smile on your face
5. I hate that you became my partner and have to bloody work with you
6. I hate when I always think about you
7. I hate the way you talk with a slow tone
8. I hate when you copy my jokes... oi, teda idea lain ka?
9. I hate you when you don’t even give a damn about me
10. Alast, eventho’ there’s so many things I hate about you, I hate it truthfully I was falling head over heels over you.

Shit... I hate myself falling for you, you pathetic creature.

MALAS!!!!

I am one of the laziest girl in the world in updating a blog... it's one freaking blog and I couldn't even update a word. Some people have more than one which is totally insane for me... :)

So why do I keep a blog when I don't really have the time to update it? Well...

1. Because most people have it so I thought I should to... (unacceptable, I know)

2. I like to update myself. sometimes. well make that one in a blue moon.

3. Well, I like writing out my feelings out. Writing, not typing. Before I thought it was thesame. hehe

4. no further comments...

Back to my life...

It's study week. Since I deactivated my FB for a lil' while I thought that I should update my blog... but it's been 1 week and ++ since I deactivated it and I only update my blog now. Duh... so lazy.

so here's a summary of my life

1. I got a braces. did I tell you that? no.. well yea I got it.

2. I manage to find time to do all my assignments during the last minute period.

3. I went for CSSUPM Annual Camp and didn't go back for Raya holiday.

4. Looking forward for end-semester holiday.

5. Learned how to play Tennis... now I can be just like Ana Ivanovic. (in my dreamsla)

6. Chose Broadcasting as a major.

7. Went to PARAMORE concert!!!!! OMG, it was supernaturally awesome!!!!

8. Slept at the airport waiting for E and V's flight home. I miss them already.

9. Became a Cell Group Coordinator for CSSUPM Exco 2010/2011.

10. Got a crush on someone but somehow I know as time pass by, this feeling will go away.

11. Fell in love with Fairy Tail anime. ngheee....

That's all... till the next blue moon.

the 8th week...

Lazy to upload the photos 'cos the line here super suck...

What I've been through this week:

1. Last-minute assignment (and then got scold by the lecturer about the front page. I did as simple as I could and she scold me 'cos didn't write which semester I'm at... come on lah,you didn't tell us at first so it's your fault, not us! yes, it's 'us'. I think all of us didn't write but I was scolded the most. I don't think the lecturer like me very much, well, right back at her. Ef-fing labuh!)

2. Went to KL again...(why I stated here, 'again'. because almost every week ... urm, no. Every week, I went to KL. When I was in highschool, I always say ''oh, I want to go to KL again.... bla bla'' Well, I guess I got my wish then. It's SALE time so I suggest you should to go to KL to shop around) with Chriz, Val, and Malisa.

I feel like the "king" of KL.

3. Had cultural mass with CSSUPM at St. Anne's chapel. It was super awesome! I had fun and gone home with a full stomach. There are still lots of foods left. The food was awesome 'cos I'm hungry and big possibilities because it's blessed. Wore punjabs attire and danced sumazau.

Half of the family...

4. Woke up in the evening 2 days in a row... (mentang-mentang la cuti kan. I feel so awful 'cos sleeping is not why I'm here for!!! Sometimes I hate myself for being so lazy)

Hi... Long Time No SEE?

So what happens after Christmas? Did Janey got hit by a car and fall into a comma? or got abducted by aliens from Pluto? or probably DIED??? oh noooo... She's just too effing lazy to go and type something here...

I read some blogs and I heard people tell me that "wah, it's been a long time since I didn't blog. I better blog now." You know, I have that same feeling but everytime I think about it I just go like "later... later." It's like I have tonnes of better things to do then blog. I do... but to think about it, if you only take about 30 mins to blog(minus the editing), it won't jeopardize your whole schedule right. I have problems with committing into blogging or even write a diary. Just want to write when I want to.

WHY AM I TELLING ALL THIS??? It's not like I have readers anymore. Whatever.

Anyway, this is what actually happen to me...

1. Graduated from Labuan Matriculation College with a 3.51 CGPA on Accountancy.

2. Stay at home...then decided to work.

3. Went to work for Pizza Hut Suria

4. Quit after 2 weeks of working

5. Lazying around the house and finishing all the foods - I love to eat =)

6. Got a letter of acceptance to University Putra Malaysia (my dream university) doing Bachelor of Communications (not really what I was hoping to get)

7. having dilemma of whether I should go or not...

8. After all those s***ty dilemmas, I went... for UPM!!! (YEAH!) B.Comm(erm, not really)

9. Came late for registration. Missed 2 days of orientation. Heheh...

10. So far so good? more updates...coming down.

11. Liking UPM. Went for the orientation....

The 2010 batch of UPM Students

12. Extra-curricular activity?.. Catholic Student Society UPM

13. Life goes on with classes and...

14. College activity... won third place for Academic race.

15. Merentas campus... (Cross-Campus). Let's jog for a healthy life...

oh and...

16. DOGATHON 2010!!!! super awesome event by the Vet students of UPM.

I'll post photos again... not now.

Good night.

The After-Christmas

Despite all the things that I felt during Christmas, Jesus Christ is here.

OK, so I felt bad during Christmas but I found out that I'm not the only one. When I was roaming around the city on Christmas day, my mom's friend lost his dad on that day. It was such a sad tragedy. People celebrate Christmas but his whole family grief for the old man's death. It was not long ago, his mother also passed away, I think it was about 2 months ago. And, I saw his dad. He was healthy and a very friendly old man. I can't believe he's gone now.

That's why I no longer feel like shit. 'Cos whatever it is, I still have my family together living under the same roof on Christmas day.

We got to move on... eventho' our loved ones gone.

Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year 2010.

Merry Christmas...

I'm posting this, maybe because I'm not ready to go to sleep yet. It's christmas and sadly not snowing. Snow never wants to get near this country... I wonder why???

Christmas is christmas. Whether you feel like it's coming or not, it's here. I have a friend who wonder "why do I feel that Christmas is not coming?". I ask myself that too... a lot. I don't know why I feel like disappearing from everything today. It's Christmas and it's one of those times where you share your love among your whole family and friends. It's a sad thing that I don't feel that this year. I even turn down my friend's invitation to celebrate Christmas with her and the others. It's not that I don't want to but... it's just that... I just felt that I have to stick with my family, especially my mother during this day.

Yesterday was not a very good Christmas eve. Christmas eve is about preparing for the Lord's coming. For Jesus to be born. Instead of that, I heard my mom and dad fought. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't cry because I was so mad or maybe because my brother was beside me and he just went off after that locking with loud songs playing in his bedroom. I'm sure somehow he's depress also. My mom didn't go to church for Christmas eve. And I didn't go to church just now. I always go to church on Christmas eve. I guess this year is different. I'm so sorry Lord. Forgive my sins. I'm so sorry Anthea for making you look for me in the church.

This is a challenge that I have to endure, eventho' I feel like disappearing. -Janey on Christmas-

holidays

I don't really know what to do these few days. Everyday is so... boring. I mean no homework, outdoor activities, no hangout places...and no money.

Yes, I'm broke. I withdraw my last college allowance last week when I was out with my girls. Well, I still have some left in my pocket but yeah, I don't think it's gonna last. I'm such a waste. My family is in this financial problem and all I do is spend!!! Shit. I gotta hold in. I can't tell my dad 'cos I know he'll be furious about it. I told my mom and she didn't give any reaction at all (that's why I told her).

I'm so bored.... but this is what holidays are about right? No worries, nothing educational going on except when you study which is totally out for me (I've had enough of torture).

I want a dog. My dog died when I was away studying in college. So I want a dog...

I have this assignment which are requested by people-who-I-don't-really-know a.k.a strangers about music sheets that they ask for. Well, I'm trying to do it... the problem is my theory in music is really bad so I don't know how to do any music scores. I will try to do it without any music annotations or expressions. Just notes will be fine. I wanted to do a tutorial but... if only someone can help me hold the camera. Forget it, I'm not going to expose myself to any video anymore. It's ridiculous.

My holiday is like this...

1. Gossip girl

2. Heroes Season 3

3. Sally's Spa

4. Machinarium

Machinarium is an amazing adventure game. My brother made me install this and I love it. The view is awe-inspiring!!! I love the animation... I can't put it in words but hey, there's always pictures. The person who made this game is pretty much a genius. I ADORE YOUR ARTWORK whoever you are.

I'm currently stuck here. Sucks much?

Where it started.

You can google it to see more cool views of it. It's a good game. Works for the brain.

I'm back. Alleluia

Oh hey, nice to ran into my boring yet I would say nice blog... sheesh...

Actually right now, I'm not in that mood to... what do you call that??? oh BLOGGING... shuush, I don't want anyone to know I had a brain damage. But I decided to do it anyway. Better now than never, right?

What have I been doing when I'm not spending my time typing silly utterings in this site?

First, my exam is over!!!! The 1st semester exam. It was ... so "not that good" 'til I can't even spill a word about it. hee... Just kidding. Well, I think I did not spent my study week that wisely but I did study everyday with a little eye nourishment once in a day. I know, I'm the worse but I just can't spend my waking hours just to put my eye in front of books and notes everyday! It is unhuman to do that, atleast for me. Here's a statement on each of my papers.

English P.1 - cool

Maths P.1 - o.k?

Maths P.2 - Gwahh??

English P.2 - Ummph...

Economy - Hm...

Business Management - grrr...

Account - imbalance

Well, what do you think? I know most of them are not even statement because they're not even words. It's because itissobloodyawfulican'tevenstateit. Sorry, you have to read that slowly. I was a little disappointed because now I know I'll gain fats during holidays but not waiting for any 4-flats.

It has been so hard in Matriculation College. It's all about study, rules and sports... I don't even have time for arts. I have time but it was stolen from all those shit-study time. Mind my language. Now, I can't even feel my middle toe. I wonder why.

So the past is past but the future couldn't get any worse....

My friends and I, planned to go for picnic at the beach and yeah, we were all happy that we could release our stress. We didn't see anything coming. Anything like... our lecturers will lecture us at the beach. I was so f***ed up to see and hear their f-ing lecture about the whole beach thing was a bad idea!!! Bunch of a**es trying to ruin our evening!

His lecture was about short pants... why we shouldn't wear short pants and why we couldn't wear them there. "This is a malay place, you can't dress like that here." something like that... so if tourists wear like that, are you going to lecture them?? They are like so retarded. I almost fight my words to one of the lecturers and if my friends haven't stop me, I could've won... yeah, right... so much for my boast act. The reason I fought because I can't stand he involved religion and whatever his talk about the bible. Does he even read the bible for anyone's sake? If you don't read the bible, you don't talk about it or it's content! I'm sorry to say, he is a muslim. And, I'm not anti-muslim but this is just too much. I hate the way they control things but I don't hate them. That is all I like to comment. It will take a whole night typing about things that aren't necessary for you to read. Actually, why do I even bother typing that? see, I'm doing it again.

Our so-called release-stress day is not even close. It changes to building-stress day and it's not over.

We got into another trouble. Going home late and lying to the guard and getting out without permission or even any wise reasons. It's a pain that we get to see the lecturer who gave us the talk about "how the beach can kill us". It's stupid I know. We got another lecture from a different lecturer and then he let us go. Why couldn't they just make it a school day so we will hear lectures every hour. urgh... But thank God, he let us go.

That was on 19th October 2009, a history for us in that college.

Yesterday was ok... No trouble. Just another ordinary day.

Today, the four of us (me, Emelia, Mizie and Van) went home using flight and we had our breakfast at mcD's. The journey was worth it 'cos I'm not tired at all. My mum brought me to Karamunsing to look for something she needs to buy and... guess what I did?

I donated my own O positive blood to the Likas Hospital!!!!!! I was so eager to go. I mean, I wanted to donate my blood since my age allows me to. I was so excited. The mood went away when I saw the big needle that is going into my arm!!! I wanted to cry if it hurts but it didn't. I was safe. haha. I don't have any visual of me sitting there letting my blood flows but I have proofs. Here you are:

My blood donor book

My first donation!!!! hee...

The hand that might save a life.

The wound.. the red one not the black mole.

So HEY!! GO DONATE, SAVING A LIFE IS WORTH IT.

No, I didn't feel dizzy or nauseous or sick right now but my arm hurt. Must be from the wound.

unprepared

The semester exam is just around the corner... another 10 days perhaps and I haven't prepared a damn thing. Well sure it's my fault but... nevermind (it's not worth giving any shit about it)
So...
I've decided that I will not never have anything anymore to deal with any shits happening here in Matix (unless it's educational).

I hate the fact that I can't control my desire to not satisfy it. Shit a**hole.

Out there

This is what happen when "we" go out...

The whole world just starts to collapse. You know what I mean?

Nah, actually, the world is still standing. I was just exaggerating.

Pictures?? sure..

We encounter a very heart-melting creature.

A goldie retriever.

A husky. Not sure if it's a pure blood, I mean it doesn't have the eye color right.

Whatever, what do I know?

Pool baby!

versus

The audiences... oh, + the camera-girl. I was watching too...

We're not playing 'cos we really suck at this especially me.

Bunch of hungry people... careful, they'll bite.

Someone is pretty much missing...hmm...

There are some other photos I wanna share. It's the B-boy from Korea and of course Sabah.

They were cool alright but I've seen better. haha.

Tomorrow

I was hoping tomorrow will be a different and a better day with no more waking up at 2 pm and only took bath once in a day and didn't revise anything. So I'll be starting with UZK assignment tomorrow and maybe ask my dad to buy me tickets to go back. I hate my college but I have to go back and finish my challenge there. Running away is never the solution.

Pictures from Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan:

My tutorial mates

With our mentor, Madam Norti

Sleeping in a lecture?

She's not the only one... I've slept too, until my pen fell down.

Lecture hall

Curl nite

I have a lot more... but that's about it in here.

bye,

till i-don't-know-when...

Guitar..guitar

From my definition... guitar is like my food for my mood.

I'm totally miserable right now because... when I got home, guess what I found?

Couldn't put it in words so might as well show you.

sad...sad.. isn't it?

take a closer look

it's really broken... total misery.

so..

I play songs with this instead.

It's my brothers.

Well, the sound is not that good to play acoustics but it'll do since I don't have a proper acoustic guitar. I really hope my guitar will get well soon or else I'll have to do a funeral ceremony for it.